Thursday, March 25, 2010

Simply a lively story that cheer me up~

This is simply a lively story about a mother and a son... recommended by my soulmate - Lena.

Hope you all will like it...

This is something I am jotting down because it is one of those things we must keep in our memory. Sometimes, I read through my old posts to remember the past.

So, today, I sternly ordered my boy to take a nap. He usually doesn’t take naps but we had to wake up extraordinary early because I had to drop my #3 son and him at various locations.

He went to sleep about 5 pm. Around 7 pm, hubby phoned that he will reach the airport and planning to take a taxi. Since it has been a while I drove up to Bayan Lepas, I decided it will be good to take my boy to visit the shops at the airport. You know lah, kids love those candy stores.

So, I woke my boy around 7.30 pm. Told him we are going to the airport to buy sweets and chocolates and watch planes arriving. He woke up without a fuss, took a bath and changed into the clothes I laid down on the bed.

He asked me, “Today, we have class you know?”

So, I told him. Yah….

He repeated, “We have class you know? You think no classes meh?”

Puzzled, I told him, “What class, no class lah. Mommy is supposed to go for mass but no one at home so I didn’t go. Jeff ko-ko class finished, he has gone out again.”

He insisted. “We will be late for class you know? It is 8 already. Class starts at 7.30″

He kept on using the word class. If he said school, this blur mommy probably would get his meaning.

Then, as we were driving out, he asked me, “What are these people doing outside?” As usual, in the evenings, the roads from my houses are packed with cars coming for dinner, burger, hawkers etc.

I didn’t get what he mean and asked him to repeat a few times.

He got pissed, “WHERE ARE ALL THE CARS GOING?”

I replied, “HOW I KNOW LAH? Maybe some want to go shopping, some want to go eating, some want to go to airport like us….”

We drove on. Passing Metrojaya, he said, “Wow, they open so early today…”

Then, only it hit upon me. My child who slept for 2 hours thought it is the morning. It was soooooo funny. But I cannot laugh because he is very sensitive. I must laugh in the right way and not in the ‘you are so silly’ way or else he will feel hurt and said something like, “Horrr…you say I dumb lah…” With this kid, you cannot even utter any negative words. He will put words into your mouth. Even when you didn’t say it, he will know you are implying it.

It took me a while to explain to him that he only slept for 2 hours and it is night time. He has to sleep again at 10 (sometimes 11 pm). It took him a while to figure out. Sigh…so cute. One time-messed kid and one blur mom.


Tell me! you experienced that as well.....

I DO!

:p

Saturday, March 20, 2010

...

你所告诉我的
是让我感到有点失措

请给我时间接受和消化
谢谢你的体谅.

Thursday, March 18, 2010

偶然 发现的存在价值

我驾着车
经过那熟悉的路口
我听着电台播着很久以前
我很喜欢的歌
很自然 很不经意的...
想起了你

和朋友的聚会中
提起了你
是悲伤 是遗憾
终究都已成为往事
那伤口偶尔隐隐作痛
不过
时间已让它逐渐康复
不是吗?

享受着忙碌
享受着工作
享受着聚会
享受着塞车
享受着生活
有多难过 有多开心
我都在享受着那过程

被重视是开心的
让我找回自己的价值

至少
偶然 发现
在某些人心中了解到
我的存在价值.

Thursday, March 11, 2010

改变

从英国回来一星期...
感觉好像回来了很久似的.
我是很想念彼邦的所有人.
但或许因为没有密切的联络和接触吧,
很多画面开始淡化了...
我在想,
三个月后,
那会是如何?
那股让我期待, 兴奋的推动力还会在吗?
我不懂.

回望自己过去一年半的改变,
是时候调整那好玩的态度,
恢复从前较为稳重的处世形象.
感激老板的compliments,
让我这次回去感觉很好.
从新回到工作岗位,
暂时没从前那么忙碌,
但责任却加重了.
训练新人的工作落在我身上......
我看见新的挑战在迎接着我.

这几天不停的在外逗留
不曾留在家里吃晚餐
见见老朋友
聚聚旧同事
小声讲大声笑
不亦乐乎.

想起另一端的人, 事, 物...
无法不思念.
只不过,
总觉得就是少了一点.........
默契? 联络? 或是...............

hmmmmmmm.......
或许,
这就是所谓的改变吧?!

我觉得那是一种遗憾。

Sunday, March 7, 2010

时间

我记得那天在房里

看着《不能说的秘密》

很莫名其妙的over reaction

或许把隔壁房的你们吓坏了

其实

那天我没有告诉你们的是

我的over reacted并不完全是因为剧情的感动

而是

我很害怕回到时差的那端

我曾经败给了时间

时间成了最终的大赢家


我不懂你明不明白我所要表达的

没关系了……

请暂停

凌晨

家里的大笨钟响亮的敲了3

我眼睛还睁得大大的

是时差吗?

还是睡不着?


我开着电脑 听着彩虹天堂

我的思绪还是没整理好

脑里的一切都很繁乱

刚下机的24小时后

电话不停打进来

很多无谓的对话

让我觉得有点虚伪

最后

我把手机给关了


请别那么快跟我说公事上的事情

我没兴趣要那么快懂

我还在假期中

为什么就不能好好让我安静的做好准备上班呢?

我更没有兴趣知道其他人的眼光

或是任何评语

我这趟回来

我仍然是我

不会对任何人造成任何威胁

所以和我说话

请不要套话

有什么问题

请直接问你老板

因为很多东西

一下子在我刚下机后

排山倒海的向我冲来

让我感到莫名其妙

我招架不了


请让一切暂停好吗?

我真的需要时间消化一下

Thursday, March 4, 2010

回程

十三个小时,
飞了很累的十三个小时
这次回来的感觉和上个暑假很不同
没有excitement
没有expectation

坐上机位,飞机开始起飞的那杀哪
我才感觉:
是的!我在回程的路途中了
很后知后觉 是吧?

我听着ipod里满满的歌
忽然想起你们给我的卡片
满满的祝福和爱
我收到了.
你们的每一个字
都在加深我的不舍和难过

头脑空白的过了十几小时
只知道自己不停的缺水
我什么都不想理
真的头脑完全空白
就只发呆
原来
我可以十三个小时
什么都不做
不吃 不喝 不睡

哥哥来接我
我笑了
嫂嫂问我问题
我答了

回到家里
我才发现
我的心和灵魂留在哪里了...

我没带走
我在想你们
你知道吗?